1 Thessalonians 5:11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
My reality is different then yours. Everyone has their own set of challenges they face each and everyday. This mother is exhausted from continuous sleepless nights, and they really have been catching up with me. Being human I struggle with discouragement at times. It’s taken me nearly 2 years to wrap my mind around all of this (sons autism). I’ve experienced numerous emotions through this process and that is OK.
Recently I felt rage inside at our babysitter’s sense of humor. She is fresh out of babysitters course and has no filter. She’s just a kid so I didn’t respond unkindly but was shocked none the less. After training her and having her keep our 2 kids for short visits so my husband and I could get out for a coffee and groceries each week, she took the liberty to joke about Silas. And I quote: “Silas is like taking care of a dog. Just keep him fed and watered, and let him chew on his toys. hahaha.” Yeah, I’m not laughing with you. Obviously we’ll be going with a qualified special needs childcare worker from here on out. You get what you pay for right? Live and learn.
I attempt to have us blend in as much as possible and run our big community playgroup out of our church gym each week. This is our 3rd year operating it and am anxious to see how Silas makes out without his big sister who is going to kindergarten in a weeks time. Yippee! I do think it will be easier to run with having only one child to mind.
Patrick and I pray for progress and realize things are exactly the way they are suppose to be. Our expectations in the beginning were quite unrealistic and we are adjusting to our own reality. What we both did wrong is compare another child’s process with our sons. Isn’t it easy to look for comparisons with people in what we feel are similar situations? Forget what your child can’t do and focus on what they can do. Work with their interest and build on their strengths. All in the Lord’s good and perfect timing.
With our Father’s continual guidance and our son’s amazing therapists we are always progressing. There is a purpose for everything and my heart is enormously grateful for the beautiful child we do have. It’s fine that he cannot do things the same way as other children. I need to often remind myself of where we were. We are blessed because we can hold him back from going to school in a years time due to the timing of his birthday. More time to prepare him for public school…our biggest fear. My heart races just contemplating the thought.
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.