Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
In a very difficult time in my life I was suffering from grief. I knew that with grieving you have to go through it, not over nor under it. I had lost a beloved pet after a long ordeal trying to prolong his life. His end was very unpleasant and traumatic. Jack was before my children and I doted on him for 8 years. My attachment to him was extremely close that it truly felt like a family member had passed away. A lot of people had no idea of the utter despair and helplessness I felt at losing my pet. I felt embarrassed at the degree of my sadness because I hadn’t grieved like this for the passing of other extended family members. Adopted animals truly do become a part of your family.
With 3 days of crying both night and day the tears continued to fall beyond my control. What was wrong with me? I needed to get back to work but just couldn’t stop feeling such utter sadness. The curtains were drawn and I sat there so pathetic in what I would call the lowest moment of my life.
Never had I experienced anything so heartbreaking. Distraught would be the best word description for the emotional state I was in. Gut wrenching sobs continued to come out of me that I never even heard knocking at my locked front door. I had started to pray out loud over and over “It’s too much…God, please help me!” As hard as this is to describe exactly, the pain lifted finally and the tears abruptly stopped falling. I keenly knew that I was not alone in the room any longer. I looked around my living room not seeing anything, but feeling…peace in the dawning realization that I would see my pet again someday in Heaven. Why hadn’t I thought of that before this point? The comfort was immediate and I felt relief and hope that someday we would be reunited. I truly believe that the angel that was there to ease my suffering put this knowledge in my heart.
Nothing else could have lifted this sadness so abruptly from my heart other than God’s intervention with His ministering angel. A moment later I heard knocking on my back patio doors and glanced up. It was my mother in law Ruth Doohan standing outside waiting for me to respond to her knocking. She had a bouquet of flowers in her arms and a lovely card. This was an unexpected visit as she lives 90 mins away and generally calls first. As Ruth came in she busied herself letting fresh air in and opening up the curtains. Her quiet concern for my well being was beyond touching. After not talking for 3 days and avoiding leaving my home, I felt the need to talk. God gave me 8 wonderful years with a beloved pet. He also blessed me with an amazing mother in law….14 years today. I feel so grateful to God for these blessings and special moments He has placed in my life.
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.