Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | May 14, 2015

I Never Dreamed

Proverbs 17:17  A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.

When I was little I truly felt like I never fit in anywhere.  I looked the same on the outside as the other children, but inside I felt different from the rest.  I wasn’t dreaming about who I’d marry someday, or what kind of wedding we could plan.  As a kid I never imagined what form of career path I’d someday choose.   I never even dreamed of becoming a mother.  I wasn’t one of those girls pretending to be pregnant with a basket ball under her shirt!  In my youth I wasn’t a dreamer.

As a kid, hours upon hours were spent in our barn with horses, calves, goats, rabbits, cats, and the dogs.  I learned a long time ago not bond with the chickens or pigs as the autumn meant their time was up.  So many good memories  taking care of all of these critters in the evenings after school, and all my free time.   God knew how much I needed animals, and it was by no accident my family moved to a farm when I was 6.  Never was there a moment wasted with my furry friends.  They were therapeutic to a very mixed up child.

I cannot speak opening about my past.  The only freeing moment I’ve had is the decision to take my life back by seeking help.  Counselling was long overdue.

Since then I’ve learned that I’m the only one responsible for my actions.  I cannot express and criticize others on how I believe they should respond or react to the knowledge.   Discovering this came later in life then it should have.  This would have saved me a whole lot of heartache.  Betrayal has crippled relationships.  I felt first and foremost betrayed by God.  I was so especially angry with Him.  It kept me from getting too close to Him over the years, and growing in my faith.

Everyone has to hit rock bottom as some point in their lives.  This likely is the way our Father goes about getting our attention.  Usually painful, but obviously effective and necessary.  Thankfully for me it happened before I had my children in my early 30’s.  I had to really get it together and stop relying on others to fulfill my happiness.  No one can measure up against God.  The Lord never disappoints us because He always has a reason behind what He does.

Psalm 120:1  I call on the Lord in my distress, and he answers me.

Fundamentally at heart I tend to be overly serious.  I was diagnosed with a learning disability in high school which held me back from many things during the school years.  I had to work incredibly hard and dealt with failure as best as one can.  Finding my strengths in speeches, projects, creativity, and essays is what kept me passing.   I had developed coping skills to hide many things, and school was just another giant hurdle.

But how do you get people to like you I had wondered as a kid?  Ah, the learning curb of being a puppet and doing anything and everything they asked.  My standards for friendships were pretty low.  Reflecting back, it does actually sadden me to think of the wasted energy I put out for people who generally had agendas.  Knowing you’ve been manipulated makes it only harder to risk trusting again.

It may appear that I am popular to many.  I genuinely love and care about all people.  It was a liberating feeling when I finally discovered Jesus was and always has been my best friend.  No one understands our pain like Jesus.  Period.  It’s just bonus that I do not have to entertain Him.  I can just be me, and that’s enough.  That’s a pretty amazing feeling.

Nehemiah 8:10 The joy of the Lord is your strength.

This month is my 37th year alive and healthy.  Now I find myself dreaming of what the Lord has in store for me in the next 37 years.   Everyday of life is a precious gift that the majority of us take for granted.

Today I watched my aunt Shirley say goodbye to her son.  He left behind a lovely wife and 7 year old son.  They put on a brave smiles for the funeral attenders.  Usually we are unprepared for deaths final call.  It really was heartbreaking, and a wake up call to keep on doing what we are called to do.  Get the Word out. Each of us has the privilege to help lead others to Christ. Knowing this isn’t the final goodbye helps immensely.

2 Corinthians 5:20  We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God.

Each human soul needs purpose, goals and clear direction.  If you lack this like I did for so long, it’s a hopeless feeling.  The enemy stole a lot of years from me keeping me angry and fearful.

Gratefulness to Jesus is what I feel for intervening on my behalf.  He gave me something to dream about.  There is so much more to life when you can see clearly for the first time.  Wrapped up in yourself always will give you a sad ending.  The “self” movement is polar opposite to where our heads should be at.  Die to self.  Romans Chapters 6-8.

Hebrews 12:2   Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

I began to dream about heaven.  Why didn’t this place ever matter to me before?  All I knew was I didn’t want to go to hell, so anything besides that would be acceptable.

There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t dream about that incredible place that someday will be our reality.  My dream is to have as many people there as possible.  Have I been a positive light in someones life?  Can they now see Jesus in me?   When I was blinded by anger, I know Jesus was not shining through.  He was very dim hidden behind my grievances.

Matthew 5:14-16  14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.

Light of the World





Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | February 6, 2015

Treasure In Heaven

This is a video that I found very helpful.  Really explains Heaven from the Jewish perspective.  This video is done by “First Fruits of Zion”. Have a look.

Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | February 6, 2015

Keeping It Real


Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | January 8, 2015

“Extreme Love: Autism Documentary” Review

Psalm 139:13-16  For you created my inmost being;  you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;  your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.  When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body.  All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

It was 2 days before Christmas and I made the mistake of watching a video called “Extreme Love: Autism” documented by the BBC’s Louis Theroux.  This was definitely not something that gave me Christmas Spirit.  The whole thing left a dark cloud over my head for days.

The purposes of making documentaries is to educate the public and make them more aware.  This does not show the broad spectrum of autism, but extreme cases (severely affected by autism).  This would seem like shocking behavior to people who do not understand some of these negative behavior traits of ASD Autism Spectrum Disorder.  Nothing positive can come from this program other then frightening people.

What my biggest concern is eventually they’ll be genetic testing for autism and this is not something people should see due to it not being a fair balance.  Reports of 98% of pregnancies are ended if they are found to have Down Syndrome.  Other genetic testings are done to weed out these (non perfect fetuses).  They told me knowledge is power so you would be prepared – no surprises.  I agreed and had the testing done like everyone else is encouraged.   It’s not far off with the startling numbers of children with Autism that researchers will soon have the answers and will begin testing for this during pregnancy.

The title alone is very telling “Extreme Love”.  What does that even mean?  Oh, if you have a child like these demonstrated you’d have to try extra hard to love them?   It upsetting me and I cried throughout watching at the obvious pain and frustration these children were going through.

Our son Silas is also considered special needs being diagnosed severely autistic.  I can safely say our love for him knows no bounds.  The thought of it being difficult to love him is absolutely ridiculous.  It’s not an easy life but trouble loving them enough?  Are we any different from the next person?  Nope.  It makes no difference whether your child has mild, moderate or severe autism, or whatever disability.  Ask any parent who has a child that is different from others and you’ll see very quickly they have no regrets about having their child, and love them just as much as their other children.  We don’t love them less because they are different.

Educating the public about the realities of these children’s special needs is totally fine.  I have zero problem with that.  All this mother would like to see is the whole story rather then distorted version of how bad it can get.  People need to be more open minded about the possibilities these children’s futures have.  Many autistic children lead productive lives and contribute/offer much to society.  

This documentary lacked balance and showed mostly older children that have become a true problem for the parents. Parents crying and about how difficult their lives serves no purpose.  The video ends on the note of what will we do with these burdens once they turn 18?  Group homes?  Bagging groceries the rest of their lives?  Sounds promising right?  I will say this, most of the parents showed immense love for their children, but were at their wits end.  From one parent to another I get it.  It is hard, but there is always the good moments.  These needed to be shown.  It left Louis Theroux (man conducting interviews for his documentary), simply astounded by the parents determination.

All I know for sure is this…Silas knows authentic love from us and we do not consider him a burden of any kind.  Real genuine parent child love.  The Lord blessed us with an amazing child who has changed our lives for the better.  I thank God for blessing us with two beautiful children.

Psalm 127:3  Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from him.




Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | December 10, 2014


Galatians 6:2  Carry each others burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

As I sit here and ponder thoughts of the happenings this past year has encompassed, I find myself dealing with an internal struggle of conflicting emotions.  By nature I feel as though my mind goes to the negative before it considers the positives.  Back and forth I go being pleased in one moment and worrying the next.

A big draft is coming in my window and need to put a sweater on.  I think “Wow, we really need to put some sort of seal over this window.”  Not “Better order some new windows for this older drafty home.”  That’s not going to happen, so I don’t even consider it.  That is so down on the list of needs of necessities.

We live in a world of illusions.  It’s so easy to assume things these days by what we see and hear on social media.  

What people don’t know is that my husband works 2 full time jobs, and has for the past couple years.  When we hear so and so owns/runs their own business, many jump to the conclusion that they must be successful.  Not necessarily.  It usually means the person is hard working because they are following their passion.  Who wouldn’t want to be their own boss?  The payoff is fantastic.  Is it the almighty dollar they are striving for?  Sure, most are, but not us.

How do you measure success?  Is it the actual amount deposited every month?  If that’s the case then we are a far cry from what most would consider successful.  But the message sometimes we send out to our friends and family is that we are doing great, or in other words, no struggling. Life is messy.

Here is what I know for sure.  The Lord is always faithful.  He knows our needs before we ask.  But He wants us to remain humble and truly learn to depend on Him.  My faith that everything is going to be OK is strong.  That’s why I just keep smiling despite the realities of our ongoing financial stresses.  I have this joy in my heart that never leaves me, because I know this life is temporary.  God has gotten us out of some mighty sticky situations in the past, and He’ll do so again when the need arises.

“Faith sees the invisible, believes the unbelievable, and receives the impossible.”  Corrie Ten Boom

Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | November 8, 2014

Our Weak Attempts & Approaches to Prayer

I think we can all identify with some of these all too human approaches to prayer.  This is one of my favorites.

The Skinny on Prayer

Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | October 23, 2014

These Images Show the Magnitude of God’s Vast Creation

Interesting how we open up the first book of the Bible Genesis and read the words practically by heart of God’s order of creation.  It’s incomprehensible how our Almighty God can create real living things out of nothingness.  This scale of our planet in comparison to the enormity of not only our galaxy, but far beyond leaves me stunned.  I’ve never seen images like these before.  Scientist pride themselves on their powerful telescope cameras to have captured these latest findings.  How could any of them believe all of this just happened and isn’t something that was supernaturally designed by a much higher being?  All of their theories fall flat at the awesomeness of our Father’s handiwork.  No words in our English language do justice to express how amazing they truly are.

Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | October 21, 2014

Heaven Trailer by Billy Graham

Billy Graham is a household name, and it’s hard to believe he is 96 years young.  His life has been a blessing to many and untold numbers have been lead to Christ through his evangelistic messages.   This film excites me because they are real testimonies.  This is not Bible stories which Hollywood takes and twist with their ridiculous versions.  No this is the real deal.  We have but one life here and this film shows just how quickly it can end.  Are we ready for what lies ahead?   Are any of us truly prepared?

Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | October 21, 2014

Dr. Charles Stanley’s Daily Devotion

October 21
The Wisdom of Right Relationships
Hebrews 10:23-24
The subject of positive relationships is near to my heart because God has provided me with such good friends. These are the people who challenge me to do more for the Lord. My friends love me, but they certainly aren’t content to let me stay as I am! If they spot a sin in my life or see something I could do better, they say so.
Paul gave relationships a high priority too. The apostle surrounded himself with people who could help him achieve two things: fulfillment of his God-given mission and conformity to Christlikeness. While Paul was pouring himself into the lives of others, he was being built up and strengthened by his fellow believers. That, in brief, is the Lord’s plan for every one of His children.
What about you? Do you have certain relationships that motivate you to pursue God more fervently? It does matter whom we allow to influence our lives. The Father equips your brothers and sisters to invest in you—to encourage you, to pray for you, and to prod you toward a more complete faith—so that you are prepared to devote yourself to serving others. Good relationships with people who build each other up can help believers fulfill God’s plan for their lives.
The finest relationships are between people who want to see each other succeed in faith and therefore “spur one another on toward love and good deeds” (Heb. 10:24, niv). In other words, our best friends are those who love us as we are but never cease to challenge us to be better for the Lord.

Dr. Charles Stanley’s Daily Devotion

Posted by: sarahjanedoohan | September 13, 2014

God is in Control of this World

Psalm 91:3-4 Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from deadly pestilence. He will cover you with feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

It’s been bone chilling looking at headlines the past month with the uproar in the middle east. The terror thousands are facing is all too real, and one realistic thing we can do is pray for deliverance of these people. It makes me appreciate our freedom all the more and think twice before complaining about anything. We have it so good in this region. There are more blessings then we know what to do with. It’s all about perspective.

Being a woman I have rights here that others can only dream about. I’ve agonized over the years the plight women and children face in these 3rd world countries. I’ve pleaded with God to lift the suffering of unnecessary practices of female circumcision, honor killings, poverty, sex slave industry, and torture etc. Not many of us are ignorant to these things because this is nothing new in history. We’ve all seen the skeletal images of diseased children rummaging around garbage piles, flies landing on their tear streaked faces. It breaks our hearts and turns our stomachs to even ponder their grim situations. The ongoing troubles of this world truly seem insurmountable. Man will just not unite together because of sin.

You know people in history have had one benefit that we do not have today. They had little knowledge of what went on outside of their own lives. Is ignorance bliss? Maybe before communications were what they are now, people lived simpler lives facing their own set of struggles. We take on the worlds troubles and our own, and it’s no wonder so many of us are stressed out and medicated. Today we have daily images bombarding us and beg us for help. We are torn in so many directions fueled by desperation and guilt to help with worthy causes. I do ask the Lord when will He intervene? Naturally He doesn’t answer me, but I do want Him to fix this sinful hurting world.

One thing that gives me hope is the simple fact that God is in complete control. He is overseeing it all and allows storms and suffering to occur. It’s heartbreaking seeing natural disasters sweeping away thousands of lives in mere moments. Families being scattered and separated is gut wrenching. How utterly helpless we really all are without Him in our corner. Satan and his helpers are out doing their worst in this world, and we can thank God they are restrained from having full reign.

Psalm 22:28 for dominion belongs to the Lord and he rules over nations.
Proverbs 21:1 The king’s heart is in the hand of the LORD; he directs it like a watercourse wherever he pleases.

Some of us care more deeply than others. We’ve all met the insensitive types that are callus and unfeeling when discussing world issues. They are detached and seem desensitized to human suffering. Jesus is the best role model we are to follow. The Lord gave us numerous examples in His Word. Jesus walked the earth and was often moved to compassion healing as many people as He could. He taught and gave power His disciples to heal. The gospels are filled with many passages of healing the suffering of oppressed people. The God of this universe has a host of ministering healing angels working tirelessly on our behalf.

Matthew 9:36 When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.

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